I'll fly away...

Posted by Danielle Lawrence on

So, I thought I was good with the whole size and fat acceptance thing. I'm pretty comfortable with my body... have taken thousands of photos showing my own plus size clothing for over 20 years now, including bikinis, with little concern.

Then, the bright idea came to me, I should do some photos of myself doing a bit of yoga in some of the Peaches exercise gear.  Great idea!  And so I did.  And then I looked at the photos, and had to do a hard swallow...because, guess what, body dysmorphia kicked in. I was kind of taken aback. I was not used to seeing my body at these different angles and poses, and I won’t lie, at first I didn’t like it.  And then from somewhere deep inside came the thought, “f#@k it, this is me, this is how I look, and it’s going out.”  I wasted too many years being concerned with what someone else’s opinion of my appearance was, I do not have time for that again. 

I hope you’ll join me as I continue my journey. I can’t say every single day that I love how my body looks, but I can say that I appreciate how it has carried me through, how strong it is, for the storms it has weathered. (Noting the irony that this pose is called Warrior 2). There's a thing now, they call it Body Neutrality, a slightly different take on the Body Positive movement.  It’s more an appreciation of function than of appearance.  

Which suits me fine. If I’m honest, I’m spending more time in the Neutral zone lately...and I think that’s a result of aging as well as size. But I’m ok with that, at least for now. And I think it’s a good mental exercise to face a fear every now and again. So, I’m going to fly away from all the negative BS, which I can do because apparently my arms have wings now!  (laughing)

Janelle


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5 comments

  • One of the reasons I love to shop at Love Your Peaches is the fact that you and I look a lot alike. I trust your pictures because they show me what the clothes actually look like on a body much like mine.
    They remind me to get on with life and living. It’s a beautiful world and we are both part of it.

    Ruth on
  • You should check out the concept of body liberation. It’s along the lines of the idea you have as a next step up from basic body positivity.

    Carol on
  • I am there with you Janelle! Thank you for your forthrightness and your great clothing. I appreciate your willingness to work with me for individual pieces. Thank you very very much, LeeAnn

    las on
  • Janelle, thank you. Along with Dianna, I too have Hashimoto Disease. Before the diagnosis, I gain a lot of weight. I’m an active woman and a mom. You have inspired me to “fly” to reach for a goal, to be me and love that me. Thank you truly doesn’t go far enough.

    Tammy on
  • I’m 62 and a big beautiful woman. I have my I hate my body moments. I’ve had Hashimotos Disease for years and tried everything to be thin or thinner. Generations of my family were large women they lived to a ripe old age, loved life and were loved. Thank you Janelle you showed me to love me and my peaches. Diana.

    Diana on

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